My husband and I are going through another difficult "hard to communicate with each other" phase. We will be doing just fine and then wham - it's like we strangers and the only way we can get through to each other is by yelling.
We don't like to yell at each other but we do it anyways. We are so wrapped up in our own individual responsibilities and stress that I think we are forgetting to find compassion with each other. So we take it out on each other.
To be the one that just gives in and lets the other cry on your shoulder is so hard when all you want is that shoulder to cry on. We both have to be strong at the same time.
I worry all the time what he is going through. Why he is so discouraged and fustrated? I have no idea and so I do the worst which is to assume it's me.
And then I get mad and start listing all the things that I do and how grateful he should be - for all that I do to make our lives easier and better. And I'm sure he probably feels unappreciated too - when we are so wrapped up in what needs to be accomplished.
It's a circle that needs to be broken. I must get back to the basics:
Personal prayer. Personal scripture study. Me time. I need to put me first so that I'm strong enough to take care of everything on my plate.