Finding Peace

I've been feeling angry lately about events that have happened within my family and loved ones. It left me feeling bitter and discontent. Hateful and feeling revengeful. I didn't want to feel that way.

I've been wanting to find inner peace and happiness and I've gathered information from other bloggers and even googled it. The search brought up Anger and that the opposite of Anger is compassion. When you can feel compassion for someone or sypathize with their situation and understand how they feel - it diffuses Anger.

I've been feeling tied down to the house and to my responsibilities. I've even felt tired of being a mom and wishing I could just be my own person. Resenting my motherly and wifely duties. It's stolen my peace of mind.

I see people doing what they love and loving what they do. They have these magical dream lives and I want one!!

I'm not content any more to daydream about a better life. And I'm not trying to escape reality or live in a realm that I've made up in my mind.

I want my reality to be where I want to be and want to be present in - what I've learned recently is called being mindful. Being mindful is being at peace with yourself in the present moment. To be at peace with yourself in stressful situations.

The following is what I've found to ring true to me when I was searching for the magic answer to a better life. And by better I don't mean money or material things.

First - prayer
I want more meaningful meditation in my life and to be able to connect with the Godly side and eternal nature of my life. I'm going to start writing a prayer journal. It's a list of things I want to pray about. My feelings and emotions. The things I am in need of. My family and loved ones. My enemies. The things that stress me out. If I really concentrate on these things during my prayer I will know what to pray about and think about and ask answers for - or just to feel peaceful about. I don't want to get caught up with the same prayer everyday for the rest of my life.

Second - a gratitude list.
If you are constantly thinking about what you don't have - or want to have... it leaves you feeling empty and wanting. Instead I'm going to make a list of things that I am grateful for that I already have. My family. My health. A home. A car that runs. Clean drinking water...

When we are grateful and content with what we have it brings inner peace. We realize the wealth that we already have. We can be happy now - not later when we get the things we want.

Third - Simplicity.
Take a time out. Enjoy the simple things. Watch a movie. Play with my kids. Enjoy a sunrise or sunset. Appreciate all the little things in my life. Don't stress out about housework or cooking or being on time. Just let things be.

Fourth - Move
Move my body. Walk - Stretch When you move you create energy. Energy is defined as the ability to do work. You have two types of energy stored energy and moving energy. One is potential and the other is active. Use your potential energy. Get outside and draw in some of the sun's energy. Get moving!

So do you want a better life? Inner peace? You just have to look around and find it beneath the clutter in our lives. It's already there waiting for us to grasp it and to be mindful that it is there. You may have to quit your job or find a new one. You may have to relocate. Fortunately for me I don't want things that cost a million dollars. I want to have good relationships with my family. I want to be able to eat healthy and exercise and take pictures. I want to travel too and that is going to take money so I'm going to put that in my prayer list to talk to God about. In the meantime I will be grateful for the beauty around me.

Don't let your "I can't do this" or "this is stopping me from doing this" get in the way... Anything is possible. Get in touch with God...feel grateful for what you have....get rid of the excuses and get out there and JUST DO IT!!

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over expecting to get different results.

Do what you love and LOVE what you do...

You gotta wanna!

Just Do it!

It is important to me to not feel angry. It takes away from my well being and peace of mind. Being at peace with myself is not ignoring what is going around me but being mindful of it without it taking my inner peace away. It is being strong emotionally and physically and having the power to stay with my wise self.

love ya! Messy Jess

Happy Birthday

Christmas. Christs birthday.

I couldn't sleep last night. I was angry about something that didn't even involve me but the injustice of it all really boiled my blood and it really bent me out of shape.

I was laying in bed wishing that the natural law of "what goes around will come around" would hurry up and happen - sooner rather than later...

wishing they would have horrible things happen to them because they are so horrible. Wishing they would get a taste of their own medicine.

I am no judge. I don't have the right to say what punishment they should receive. I have so many of my own sins to be judged. I thought to myself that one day they will get what they deserve. God will reign down with his wrath and every wrong will be righted.

And then I thought about Jesus and the persecutions he went through. People that hated him. Spit on him. Nailed his hands and wrists and feet to the cross. Whipped him. Laughed at him. Mocked him.

Did Jesus lay in bed at night thinking - You just wait - you're going to get what you deserve - just wait till my father deals with you. You ....You are going to get it!! He didn't do that.

He lived a higher life. He looked at those people and begged his father to forgive them because they knew not what they were doing. He was humble. He was merciful. He descended below all men but he was the greatest of us all.

So today is a celebration of Jesus Christs birth. I love this saying:
Greatest man in history named Jesus had no servants, yet they called him Master.Had no degree, yet they called him Teacher.Had no medicines, yet they called him Healer.He had no army, yet kings feared Him.He won no military battles, yet he conquered the world.He committed no crime, yet they crucified Him.He was buried in a tomb, yet He lives today
I have always loved Christmas. And not for the gift giving but for the traditions and time spent with family. I watched my children open their gifts today and watched the wonder and excitement in their eyes and faces. All day I thought about what gifts I was leaving my children. The gift of time. The gift of love. The gift of teaching them. The gift of patience. Gifts that I want to leave my children - helping them to become honest and independent individuals. I want them to be happy. At peace with themselves and with the world.

It was a peaceful Christmas. I wish you a peaceful Christmas. A new year filled with new resolutions and finding ways to bring peace to your heart and loved ones.