The MEANEST MOMMY in the world!

It's Halloween and I am going to THROW AWAY all my children's Halloween candy.....except the chocolate ones.

Now before you burn me on the witches stake hear me out...

If it doesn't have chocolate in the candy it's just sugar right? So I'm letting them keep anything with chocolate in it.

Second...have you heard of anyone getting cavaties from eating chocolate? It's been said that there is nutritional value and mentally well being from eating chocolate!

Just kidding... We are cutting back on the amount of CRAP the kids are eating this holiday and that's how we decided to divide and conquer. That and we are trying not to let anyone get sick between now and baby Valories surgery.

We have had yet another change of plans. Our neurosurgeon canceled the surgery for a family crisis. His secretary said she had no idea when we could reschedule.

Rather than wait around we found someone else. Good thing we did. We are now going to Denver CO to see one of the best Chief of Neurosurgery. She is amazing. Not only do we have our initial appointment with her but surgery scheduled as well.

We will be at the St Lukes Presbyterian hospital and will most likely be able to stay at the Ronald McDonald house half a block from the hospital.

I will post after the surgery and let you know how it goes. I can't describe in words how amazingly blessed we feel.

The end...almost

I quit my job. Lost more than half our income. BUT! We now have our children on State Assistance and FINALLY got baby Valorie her surgery scheduled. We had to file bankruptcy. We are losing everything except the house. Well...maybe even the house. We are 3 payments behind and we got the forclosure notice in the mail. But it's not over yet. Surgery is the 27th. I am hopeful that everything is going to go smoothly. We have each other and that is all we need. And a nap...

We have been so blessed. I have felt so comforted and loved and sustained through all of this. Prayer, Scripture and going to church has kept our minds clear and has given us peace. I know my Heavenly Father loves each one of us. I know that Jesus gave his life for us.

I think of our bankruptcy. We don't deserve not to pay our debt. But under the circumstances here we are. We have been wiped clean of our debt and our credit.

It made me think of what Jesus has done for each one of us. I do not deserve to have my sins forgiven but it is by His grace that I can repent and be forgiven. Grace and Mercy. I have a new understanding.

I have been given the gift of time. I am spending it on my family. Every last drop of it.