Room #327

We have a little spot that we love to escape to.

Room #327

Hot tub

Master Suite

1 mile from home

peace and quiet

clutter free

sleep in

room service

Oh yah, it was sweet.

But now it is back to reality.

Where's your father???

Warning: this post is dripping with self pity.

It's fathers day and there is no father here.

He has gone and left us. He is driving to Idaho as we speak - um, as I type....

Work has taken him from us and he went so willingly. I wouldn't be so upset about it EXCEPT for the little bitty fact that his destination is 1/2 mile from my mothers house. And I miss her SO MUCH!

I've always hated Fathers Day. I had a dad - once. But he really messed up his life and messed up my life. He was criminal. He was abusive. So Happy Freakin Fathers Day wherever you are. It's not that I don't forgive you - I even feel sorry for you. But I just can't keep subjecting myself to your illness. If I were an alcholic I'd go drinking right about now. But I'm not. And I have responsibilities to take care of so I'll continue to smile and keep my house in order and give my children the security that they need to become happy functioning adults.

I'm going to sit on my newly manucured lawn, throw some meat on the bar-b and enjoy the company of my friends. They just adopted a second child and they are willing to come and be with us on Fathers Day whilst my husband and father of my children is out of town. It shouldn't be so hard for me but it is. Thanks for sharing your fathers day with me.

Oh and Mom.... Happy Fathers Day.

OH - If you can't tell I am an advocate for families that consist of both a father and a mother..... Have sex with whomever you want - gay's lesbians - it's your right but don't be so selfish to bring children into that. Where would you be without a father and a mother?

That's all I'm saying about that.

A few random thoughts

It is fast Sunday. I haven't fasted in a long time. I think I will fast for my children's health and for my husband to be able to complete his church callings.

I want to fast for my own endurance and determination. It's been a rough few months.

I finished cleaning the children's rooms. Jon wanted mats in his room like the girls so Darrel helped him lay them out. I love it when Darrel is good to the children like that.

I've been thinking about my weight loss goal and have come to the realization that I will never reach my true goal unless I have all this extra skin removed. BUT... I feel so much better. I conquered going to 50 and back with much more ease than last time. It felt so GOOD! I've been riding my bike for 30 minutes during lunch hour and I practically crave that time. It feels so GOOD! Even though I won't reach that magic number I will still be able to make working out part of my lifestyle. I've finally put myself first and I am focusing on being happy.

Now I'm off to get the children and myself ready for church. Darrel had an early morning meeting and is already there. He was called to be the Elders Quorum President. We are excited because we are finally in the new building and it is beautiful. When I was little I had a dream. I was inside a church building and I felt safe from the darkness outside. I am reminded of this dream when I am inside this new building. It is like coming home to a familiar place. Like I've been here before. Our ward boundaries were changed and there is many people I do not know yet. Perhaps today they will announce the new Relief Society Presidency.

I am feeling very grateful and blessed.

Looking back...

Last year at this time we got over 9 inches of rain -
We had just moved in and had a baby and we had to do this project...

First we had to pull out the bushes

Save the grass

Level the yard to make the water drain out and not in

Order a few tons of gravel

Digg all the way around the house to expose the foundation

Most of it had to be dug by hand

Layer the hole with gravel

The Black hose?? I'm not sure what it does

Connect all the down spouts

Grandpa earned his reward in heaven

Putting gravel on top

Ordering more grass

Pretty as a Princess

This is me when I was a little girl.

And here are my little girls...

We wore pigtails for Sarah's birthday party

Sarah had a natural curl to her piggies

Amazing how a simple gift can occupy them...

...all day long!

I wish I were as pretty as a princess
Rich as a Queen
As lovely as a flower
On the first day of spring

Happy Birthday!